DEEP D0WN 1NS1D3 M3....

10.10.10..............With today....it has been exactly 2 months.....but between us it has been like ages......(why??) sometimes i wish it was not this soon..... perhaps it should have been...... now i am covered by a blanket of guilt......i m really sorry.....things happened between us.....not just simple ones.....but ones that leave behind a great memory and maybe...sometimes a lesson....complex yet understandable.....only by me.....yes me..... maybe "we" is just a coincidence like the many other that happened in our life...... you won't forget me right?? at least keep me alive in your memory..... i m not gone...... you told me i am in you...and i wish i always be with you.....because....that's where i belong......

love u lots......

~raven~

pEoPle in My lifE........

More then 18 years of my life has passed by.........and life is still going on....no matter what happens..... sitting here all by myself.......gets my brain juices flowing..... i was just wondering..... i hav met so many people along the way of growing up..... different people.....different places..... different reasons..... some voluntarily...some momentarily.....and some.....juz fragments of memories........since i was young..... Have you ever came across someone and an undescribable feeling juz creeps up into your head, "i have met that person somewhere...". but the brain just fails to recall who that person really is.... or maybe.....our brain does recall who the person is...but the person have got no idea who we are.....when once in the early stages of life....we have spend meaningful time together.......(T_T).... it is really sad......really really sad......but thats the way of life......classified by many as UNFAIR....... i am not purely satisfied with the way life is.....but i am glad.....that at least.....i do remember most people i have met along my life...... i might not remember your name......i might not remember where, when or how we met.......but i knoe somehow...that we did share a memory together...... i am indeed blessed to have that ability......:)

I dunno wor.......

lately...i've been havin a mixture of feelings......i dunno y........during english...i wentt blank when dear ms. hanie told us 2 define love....of all words.......LOVE!!!??? N darn me! i went blank!!!!...LOVE!!!!! its juz a feeling!!!!!! i cud hav crapped nytin bout it but my dear ol' mind chose 2 shut down at dat particular moment!!! wat da heck!!!.....i think sumtin is seriously wrong wif my body ......hmmmmm........wat shud i do....wat shud i do.........

emO.... :(

walking around.....meeting new people........i knoe its fun.......i knoe its exciting......n i m also aware of all d heartache dat comes with it........sometimes......i feel solitary life is better.......no new ppl in my life...no new memories........no new heartbreaks......no tears.........

~raven~

I.LOVED.IT!!!!!

I never knew d closing ceremony 4 INPRO will b dis awesome..........kickin off wif craziness n ended wif a whole lot of excitement.......(trust me...d endorphins kept me awake till 2am!!!!!) wakakakakah........i loved all d marching....n performances by each programme.......the Russian Programme's one was really unique.......millitary plus robot plus toys????? i knoe it sound crazy but trust me it is one of my personal favs.......hehehehehe........ next, the ADFPs......hmmm......they really rocked!!!!!! i m so in love wif our very own Lady Gaga (Akira)...omg!!! he really did impersonate her well!!!!! honestly i had my eyes on his nails!!!! wakakakakah........! yeah d AUSMATs did awesome too!!!! loved their theme 4 d nite....Zombies........very interesting........hehe.....the Korean n Japan Programmes did a gr8 job too......lolx.....then comes our very own ALM.......!!!!!!! wooohoooo!!!!! i loved the song!!!! n d dance......part of me regret for not joining d dance.......(if only dere was no marching!!!!) haizzz.........Lolx.....d marching's not really d only reason.....

the nite was indeed fun!!!!! cheering......n dancing n singing along...owh yeah not forgetting d clapping etc........it was wonderful indeed......! cant wait 4 d next INPRO....:))))) sadly...i dont think dere will b much excitement or smiles on my face anymore......( i knoe y!) sob...sob.....nywazer...my der frens......HOAY WEN, DATSHANA, SU KWAN...v had a whole lot of fun.......snapping pictures n all.....heheheh....dats d best part...n of course chasing after d bus 2 get back 2 our hostels...heheheheh........ memories.......

~raven~ >.<

DARING!!! lolx

i cnt blif i actually had d guts 2 pierce my nose...hahaha....well yep i did it!! I PIERCED MY NOSE.....& yes it was abit painful but it was 4 a while only...nywaze....dis happens when u long 4 a change in life....in my case i m starting wif my face...hahaha....stupid me.....lolx....now i hav 2 look 4ward 2 my dad's reaction when he sees my new nose stud...lolx......hope he doesnt get mad!!!

P/S: tears in ur eyes is a normal involuntary reaction dat d body produces after the piercing process.....:))))

This thing in my head......

...something i really hav no control of........incidents happen......accidentally...out of d blue.....its not like i want it dat way but it juz happens......my body does not tell me b4hand dat it wants to do dis...or do dat...but when it does do something unexpected unexpectedly.....i pay d price...~days of nightmares...., haunting memories......my brain has this bad habit of recalling "the incident"...which makes my whole bloody system go haywire.....by the time i realize that everything happened in d past n i cant do nytin about it...i hav wasted a whole lot of tears n time.....maybe its time i get some help?????

HEAT!!!!!!

I hate it so much in Taiping ryt now!!!! the weather is freakin hot n i cant take it nymore!!! sadly i can do nothin.......it barely rains n d plants look so sad............hmmm.....part of me blames d construction goin on at d area near my house (which was a cool green jungle kinda area b4 dis)! hate it so much.....dont dey realize d effects of dier doins!!!! damn d money minded ppl!!!

Alone!!!!

i m feeling happy....but i hav no1 2 celebrate it wif.......(guy frens r counted out...coz definitely parents wun allow 2 go out wif ya all)izni is gone 2 shah alam......my dear kei......back in her kampong.......sob...sob...nits...i dunno lor.....how..........so lonely......... will u accompany me????

saspens....!!!

i waited 4 a bad two hours after 3pm (d actual time d results were supposed 2 b out)...den finally.....NO. K/P:........KATA LALUAN:......lolx......technically i had 2 try a few more times b4 i really got d good news......nywaze......congrats 2 all my other frens who got it...but i still feel dere r sum others who r deserving but didnt get d scholarship......dun worry guys....i really hope u guys will get d biasiswa dalam negara.....

Blogging......?

for so long i hav been amused by the term 'blogging'......LOLX......finally i decide 2 try 'blogging'.......*sighs* i seriously dunno wat dis thing is all about........willing 2 learn though......... >.<