This thing in my head......

...something i really hav no control of........incidents happen......accidentally...out of d blue.....its not like i want it dat way but it juz happens......my body does not tell me b4hand dat it wants to do dis...or do dat...but when it does do something unexpected unexpectedly.....i pay d price...~days of nightmares...., haunting memories......my brain has this bad habit of recalling "the incident"...which makes my whole bloody system go haywire.....by the time i realize that everything happened in d past n i cant do nytin about it...i hav wasted a whole lot of tears n time.....maybe its time i get some help?????